34: cuts, walks, and friends

today i learned a new skill

i was doing a fit check today and turned around and saw the back of my head. the back of my hair was lacking. to give more context, i started cutting my own hair in March. i always taper the sides because I want that clean look, but i've never tapered the back because it was hard to see and get right.

but that all changed today

the back of my hair was so funky looking that i decided that it's the time. time to learn how to taper the back. so after a couple tries at it, it turned out meh. looking at the photos now, it doesn't even look bad and the end result is not even that different ☠️

i liked that i tried though and it's a good start to getting better. i def have to work on the shape since it has an upside down U shape to it. but we'll get better with practice!

after that, i mostly chilled out watching tik tok and youtube until I had enough! it was time to touch grass. so your boy went on his touching grass walk. i walked down to the lower east side to a skate shop since i wanted to see how much a board would be. i've been thinking that skating around the city would be super fun but i didn't bring my board from home

i pulled up to the shop and they told me a complete board would be around $180. damn. honestly that's a fair price given inflation and being in nyc but i was not tryna pay $200 after taxes for a board. so i asked Mom if she could ship my board at home over and she happily agreed. thanks mom. so I spent $20 on shipping instead of $200 on another board. value.

i proceeded to walk along the lower east side and hop on the williamsburg bridge. i looked over at it and said to myself "huh i wonder what that bridge is like" and so i went. essentially this is a bridge that connects Manhattan to Brooklyn. i enjoyed the long walk with a good breeze and semi polluted air. the bridge looks pretty sick tho. on my walk i thought about the times I'm shy and hesitant to approach people and why i have that fear of rejection. i really don't know where it stems from but i made it a point to approach people and complimented a handful of people on my bridge walk

after my walk i ate some dinner and was tired of just watching things. on my walk i thought about how much social media i watch. I thought to myself, "i'm consuming other people's lives more than i'm creating things for my own."

after these thoughts, i hit up ethan and march on facetime. i told ethan all about my night out and march didn't pick up until like two hours later when he woke up. after march hopped on, ethan left to  talk to his other friends on valorant while march and i started talking about our lives and dating.

we talked about dating apps and revamped his whole profile 😼😼 imo it was way better than his old photos but we'll see if the likes and matches start flooding in or not. we talked until like 4:30am and i went to sleep but it was nice hitting up the boys and talking

it was lovely catching up with the boys and hitting up my friends. i should be doing that more instead of being on my phone consuming others people's content. i don't feel bad or lazy for watching tik tok so much, but it was a nice realization that I want to focus more attention on doing basic things that bring long term happiness