27: every other day

every other day these last few days have been bad for me.

and i think i know why.

there's a cycle that follows these feelings.

the day i'll feel down, i will be in the apartment, watching social media, and not have plans to do anything. no plans to explore, no plans to go out, no plans at all. and then i do this until i feel awful. and once i'm at that feeling, i decide i have enough of this feeling and will do something tomorrow.

tomorrow rolls around, i get up, go out, and do work. then I feel better and at the end of the day I wind down and start the next. but that next day, I wake up and lay around. I do some work, but ultimately in the apartment, I'm not doing much. This leads me back to feeling awful and dreadful.

I don't like this cycle. it's not fun. especially writing this from a bad feeling day. but don't worry i have the answer. the answer to my problems: a plan.

when i don't plan to be productive, unsurprisingly, i'm not. so I will have a plan the day prior to how i will spend the next to feel productive and fulfilled. starting today.

my plan for tomorrow

• wake up, grab an avocado from the grocery store, and make some avo toast for breakfast
• go to Madison Square Park around 10:45 for the Pride March
• Maybe grab lunch with my roommate if he goes to the pride march, if not, make lunch
• Go to the Guggenheim and take pictures
• go back home for dinner
• study a mod for audit

Sounds like a packed day which is good for me because I want to be going out and enjoying the city. fr need to touch more grass, it's good for me.

also today, i just bought groceries, went for a walk where it started raining on me, tried 7th street burger (it's like in n out but smaller and more pickle tasting), and learned a little bit more on photoshop for my next vid idea.

thanks for reading and commenting :) peace out